Without Words

I haven't posted in a long time. Too long I guess and this is the update. I cheated on my new meal plan of good food. I didn't last long at all, although I have lost 5 pounds and kept it off. I guess all I need to do is stop being lazy and actually get to it right?!
I am in the process of getting a job at the airport, at Starbucks. It's pretty silly but I've always wanted to work there. So it's paying minimum wage but I don't mind. I'll be working an overnight shift, which by the way pays 50 cents more and I AM SO EXCITED!!
Just did my fingerprinting today, I have to say I am glad that they don't put the black ink on our fingers anymore to do that.
The more crazy news of my life can't be exactly told well because I'd have to kill ya :D
Okay not really but the skinny of it goes a little like this. My brother and his baby mama of 3 kids aren't really taking care of their kids instead my dad, which is a not so great dad and his hill billy girlfriend are. I've always didn't like this because It just isn't right. First off that's my dad, my brother is my half brother from my mom so the kids are not even with blood relatives. They have lived in town about 15 mins away and now are deciding to move to the mountains or something and thats about 2 to 3 hours away. NOT SO GREAT right?! Well now we are going through a custody craphole, me and my mom to get these kids with real relatives. Geez my life is crazy and I would get into more details but all that is kind of personal. One main point is that my dad is still married to my mom... dun dun dun!!!
Okay on to the next subject...
Summer!
Other than my job I don't have any other plans. I need ideas. Yesterday i went to a city that is a couple hours away and it was great. Me, my little brother and my boyfriend went to the sea life center. I love the sea lions!! Okay next place would be a 5 hour trip or a 9 hour trip. But really I want to go to California or Washington or even Florida.. I need some real sun in my life!

So it's actually hard

After spending a week just filling up on the food I won't be able to eat anymore, I finally get the time to go on base and get some Healthy food. I was jamming to my music and when I get there I hand the guy my card and he says good day and then tells me to pull over because it's ILLEGAL to have studded tires on base. (side note: I live in Alaska and we have to change over our tires and i guess i missed the dead line) So i pull over not knowing what to do and so frustrated and embarrassed and kind of scared to be honest. I kept thinking they were going to shoot me or something. BUT luckily I got off with a warning but i had to leave base. SO i go home load my tires in the car, go to Johnson's tire service, walk around and find the new Shatter nail polish, and then get my car back. After I unloaded the old tires into the shed I headed back to base, got on without any problems. As you could imagine I was exhausted to I tried so hard to get all the stuff I needed and head out. It turns out when you rush you end up forgetting things UGH!!
So today was DAY ONE and I am so hungry and want fried foods and feel like dying. I am being a little dramatic but not as much as my little brother, he literally sat there and gagged as he ate a ceasar salad w/o dressing. I do admit it did need dressing but he was being a drama QUEEN!!
Today is almost over and i can't wait even though I have 16 more days to do until I can have bread I just want to sleep and not think about the pain in my stomach =/

*HELP ME LORD*

Food; I try to resist

I don't know about you, but getting healthier always means I can't enjoy the foods i love. And i love food. I would marry food if I could, I would let my self be obese except i wouldn't :]
I know that there are a lot of ways to incorporate the foods you like without overdoing it. But it seems to me that I can't get what i love without overdoing it. When was the last time you only ate the serving size in a bag of chips?? been awhile huh. I try so hard but fail all the time. I've even tried wheat pasta and ewwwwww it was gross. SUCH a big change.

Some things I always cut out are
1. Fast Food
2. Junk food
3. Soda (any kind, dark or light)

Those seem to be the only foods that contribute to my weight gain.

Okay all I've been talking about is what's good to get thin. But there are things that matter, like what makes you happy? I went to a counselor some years ago and she figured I was just pessimistic, and I am, so she told me to write down several things that I am grateful for everyday. I did this and I was a lot happier. It actually makes a difference in your life.
Today I am grateful
1. That school is finally over
2. For sleep
3. For utilities, especially water
4. That I have two living parents
5. That my dogs are always happy to see me

These are my dogs. They are King Charles Cavalier Spaniels, and I simply adore them. Kylie is the reddish brown dog, she is 3 years old and Charlie the blenhiem is just barely a year old now. This picture was taken last year when I first got him. I will upload a more recent one of them, I don't have a picture of them together, not good ones anyway. So these are my babies, they often piss me off and bring me joy. I am hoping that Kylie is pregnant (crossing my fingers). Been waiting a long time so that will make me very happy.

Kind of got side tracked there but there are some things that make me smile. Do more of smiling and less of frowning and more likely you'll outlive a turtle :]

Activity: Basketball

Yes today I played some basketball at the school just around the corner with my Mister, who will soon be proposing to me :). Anyway it was so fun and I guess the best part is just laughing at myself and at him for missing or in a shocked way when we make it by throwing it without looking. I am pretty sure this constitutes for a workout I mean i wasn't out there for an hour but I felt so exhausted by the time I was done I barely had the energy to throw a free throw, which is very serious.

I guess my love for basketball started with this movie (shown above). Love and basketball, I first saw it in middle school and fell in love with "Q" (omar epps) Which is quite silly now because I do not find him attractive. I just loved the story of how a boy and girl grew up together and ended up with one another. What a fairy tale right?!
Anyway I played in high school my freshman year, ended up on the JV team and was a starting five player. Another BIG deal. I would have been in varsity the next year but my mom got sick, and well that's another story. But even though i still do love throwing that ball and crossing my fingers it makes it in. To my surprise every time I do make it in I always blame it on luck. :] but i know i must have some skill.
I wonder what tomorrows activity will be? Maybe I should start with some real deep SPRING CLEANING!

Tools

You can't just jump into getting healthier without having some tools to guide and help you. Now I do not have a home gym or a gym membership, which by the way I think is a complete waste of money, but I do have some tools to get me started.
(1) An aerobic step

(2) 5 pound dumbbell

(2) 10 pound kettle bells

(1) yoga mat

A couple of DVD workout videos: Kim Kardashians: Fit into your jeans by Friday, Yoga with Gaiam, Tai chi with Gaiam.

To be honest whatever you choose would be great as long as you enjoy doing them and they are a little challenging.

ALL this exercising would mean nothing if we just pig out every night, so unfortunately we need to cut sweets. OH NO!! Almost seems impossible but how i see it is once I lose this 20 pounds and get my body looking sexy :) then that's when I'll add those sweets back in.
To help with this eating plan not diet! I must exaggerate that it is NOT a diet just a way to trick your body into losing weight and burning more fat with the foods we eat.
I bought a book from Barnes and Noble's top book picks! Weird because I've never done that but this book is awesome!

Now although it sounds like it's only 17 days, it's not. It's actually 4 intervals of 17 days and I read through the first 3 chapters and it seems promising. The first cycle is called Accelerate. In this portion I can have unlimited protein (which I don't get enough of and meat is a good source that I really don't like to begin with) and vegetables and fruits. Carbohydrates and sweets are cut out completely so like I said I WILL GET MY DONUTS at some point :)

Alrighty so those are some of my tools that I am going to use. I hope I have the strength to do this.

Blogging

Blogging is something totally new and exciting for me. I am not too sure where to start out or what to even write about. So up until now I have just been posting whatever was on my mind. As it turns out some blogs have points to them :). So here I go again searching the meaning of a blog. I currently have tons of time on my hands and that may inspire the blog. With a whole summer to do whatever I want I have to decided to get healthy.

Yes healthy and I mean a complete renovation of my life. That means healthy body and healthy mind. Just like many americans I am too worried with life's little stressors and tend to be on the "cup half empty" side of the street. To be happy means to be successful so in the end I will be all that and more.
My main motivation for this is because I've gained 20 lbs since last year. OMG yes 20 pounds!! It really freaks me out that i had to buy size 14 jeans when I used to wear size 11. You know when you sit and you can feel a roll pinching. GEEZ I loathe that feeling. So here I am to rid of it for good.

Fitness Magazine and Shape Magazine are going to be my tools this summer to getting healthy. If you haven't ever read these magazines, well you should. It doesn't only talk about exercising, but also about great foods and beauty health tips.
I don't know about you guys but I want to look like Sofia Vergara if I can. I really want to be confident enough to take my jacket off and feel sexy. So women, if you want to feel sexy , lets get to it!

Rain

There is something absolutely beautiful about rain. I love the smell and the look of it. Most people love sunny days, as do I, but i love a good rainy day. And when there is thunder it just adds to the romance of it all. Lightning completes the date as well..
It rained last night and i woke up wondering if all the bad had been washed away. Can it be washed away? I walked around getting ready this morning believing it was perfect, the sun shinning through the grey clouds and nothing was wrong. And then you get news of people getting raped, people dying, people lying and cheating and you realize that nothing is washed away. God, or who ever you want to believe made it rain, did it so we could believe in this new day, through a new lens of life. BEAUTIFUL rain!